Sometimes there is so much to say that I have trouble expressing my heart in words at all. That's why I haven't posted in awhile. I have so much to unload, so I'll have to keep it simple.

I deserve nothing, and yet my God grants me gifts that are more than I could've asked for or imagined. In that category:

-friends, true friends that love, and care, and serve each other

-a boyfriend who is beyond wonderful, who loves God, who makes me feel safe, who is more than I deserve

-a church that actually functions as a community, through whom I see Christ so clearly

-a place to live, find peace, and feel at home

-the ability and resources to love and serve people even though I rarely reach my full potential

-freedom from my anxieties and fears, freedom from my "need" to please others and my "need" to control

-rest and peace

-direction and purpose and passion

He has given me so much. I wish I had the ability to thank him, but my meager language doesn't possess the vocabulary sufficient enough to express my thankfulness. The most I can offer is my heart and life, which he already has.

And so I'm humbled.

I'm on my knees realizing my inadequacy at the feet of the most wonderful person that has ever loved me. But also realizing how wonderful this posture is, and how I never want to get up from this spot unless it is to look into the eyes of my Savior when I go home.

For now I remain where I am. Lowly and unable. But overshadowed by a fantastic and perfect God.

Not quite simple, but exactly what I needed to say.