purpose

sometimes i get really impatient working retail. 

i get tired of people being pushy and treating me like i'm not even a person - just something who brings them what they want.

i get tired of people getting mad at me for things that aren't my fault.

i get tired of money and how much money people spend on nothing.

i get upset with how much i, myself, want things that i don't need, and how this job encourages that materialism.

i am upset with how purposeless my job is, how defeated it makes me feel, and how i can't find a job that doesn't do this to me.

i know this is how God is providing for me right now, I just wish he could provide in a different. i know that is selfish and whiney, but it's true.